sidetracked on the
side (of the)
she wasnt one to take advantage of anything or anyone, even during times of
she needs you;
it takes a map with miles to keep him
she recently fought 240 days to be at his side as she was for
she cant get across her desire for more,
(materialistic NOT key here);
acknowledged yet dismissed, listened to but scolded,
& her cries that echoed only caused listeners to
play nervously on their phones so they wont hear,
shove those earbuds in deep
(until their nerves begin to bleed);
they couldnt be bothered.
she turned away, unsurprised. (hide your fears, they’ll ignore them too.)
please dont let me miss out on anything, she said (in passing)
and has repeated it often.
you aren’t, you wont, she was promised.
BUT if you try to discover anything new,
your dream house will include padded walls
and locks (with no keys).
discouraged, to say the least.
the very least, matter of fact.
the freedom i seek is to be out from under the
darkness and the shadows that swallow me whole.
being that i am invisible, im sure my voice resonates
only within my tortured mind.
its not what youve done (i dont care what youve done)
*or didn’t do.
i know ive been honest in every aspect in every attempt to get across
i am under fire
for reasons of a hot buttoned, hot tempered finger and i will
marshmallows shoved & ready on their
smile nervously, weave through the aisles;
weave through the miles.
always ending up in the place i do
it is my house, it is not home.
i can feel the vultures circling today
i sense them near
but i have no shield to protect myself, i have no direction (given freshly) to ensure
but we all learn from our mistakes.
i hope your mistake
doesn’t cost me.
i hope your deaf ears
haven’t truly lost me.
hours separate the mason-dixon
but being on the same page
is a few encyclopedias away.
i am stuck inside the Z
seeking point A
you, point B,
wave me past
down to F;
how unassuming this is where
ive held & expressed the strongest of ideals and have only wanted you to
i begged him not to wait until its too late;
im afraid its too late.
there hasnt been clarification beyond the
and how i dont think he ended
the way she said it
but i wasn’t there,
its just a feeling i get.
everything lately has been
just a feeling i